(Not me,but damn she's putting in work)
When I was 11 I no longer wanted to be a painter, I knew I wanted to be a photographer, All I wanted was a camera. When I was 17 I realized that I didn't just want to take photos, Every time I would watch a movie I would always wonder "How did they do that!?"
I recall watching the directors commentary on dvds and enjoyed them discussing "behind the scenes" extras.
Then it hit me. I realized. I wanna be that guy or (girl for that matter) who knows how they did those things.
I took a basic film study classes my senior year of high school, and I took it seriously. I really wanted to study film. Although it wasn't much of an a class it was meant for freshman. I complete the projects and really enjoy leaning about history of film. when I graduated high school. I didn't apply to any colleges during my senior year. For some reason I feared that I wouldn't get into any colleges any way so I should just stick with the community college route..
I don't know why I didn't have any faith in myself back then...anyway fast forward 2 years later..
My first day ever on a film set was as a production assistant on a short film called "Hello November" back in 2011. I remember answering the ad on craigslist, and being so eager that I told the director I would it for free. Between you and me I think that was the only reason I was hired. I had no experience, no car, nothing to bring to the table..'cept heart. I remember I was freaking out because I didn't have a car, nor did I have my license yet but I sure as hell wanted to be on set. I actually had to beg my friends if they would pick me up, to and from set each day. They even had to miss work, or switch shifts so they could help me out. I was so grateful to them still am. The things people will do for you to help you achieve your dream.
On my first day I did craft services, and I learned how to do a operate a slate. I stood around confused sometimes I realized that I should just ask someone with they need help. There is always something to be done. I help the grips load equipment to the truck. I assisted the director with my set decoration "messing up a room". It was very tiring. I also didn't realize that film making consists of a lot of waiting. The day last almost 11 hours. I was so freaking exhausted I remember falling asleep during the martini shot. (Last shot of the day). I realized as the production went on, despite being stressed about my transportation, and making sure I did I job that I loved being around the cast and crew. I loved the film jokes, and how everyone was different and they we all are working together to make someone's vision come to life. It's a very amazing thing. I knew once the director call out "THAT'S A WRAP" that it wouldn't be my last time hearing that If I had anything to do with it.
I really hope everyone finds their passion. Something that is worth fighting for.There are days when I wonder if I should give up. If it is even worth it. The lack of money, the sleepless nights, the stress of it all. Then I step on that set. I am know this where I am suppose to belong.
I have come so far in 2 years since I began my film production journey. But I haven't even touched the surface. I know there is much work to be done. On and off the set. (hehe) I will continue to share my stories and my goals, in hopes that this will help you find yours.
I'll leave you with the question that constantly pops in my head.
How bad do you want it?
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